Motherhood reimagined : when becoming a mother doesn't go as planned : a memoir / Sarah Kowalski.

At the age of thirty-nine, Sarah Kowalski heard her biological clock ticking, loudly. A single woman harboring a deep ambivalence about motherhood, she needed to decide: Did she want a baby if it meant doing it alone? Once she revised her idea of motherhood, the answer proved to be a resounding Yes. She chose to conceive using a sperm donor - but her plan stopped short when a doctor declared her infertile. How far would she go to become a mother? Sarah catapulted herself into a diligent regimen of herbs, Qigong, and meditation in a quest to improve her fertility. Along the way, she delved deep into spiritual healing practices, facing down demons of self-doubt and self-hatred, and once again revising her vision of motherhood. A story of personal triumph and unconditional love, Motherhood Reimagined reveals what happens when we release what's expected - and embrace what's possible.